Today it's personal

So faith and asking God for things..... I'm about to share my deepest most private stuff. My 3 y/o has to go through invasive testing for her kidneys every year, since birth. She is on medication year round. I and many others have prayed for healing. She has not been healed.
My sweet girl is aware of the coming tests and is very anxious about it. I can not describe the sounds and look that come over her when we go through a medical experience like this. It is heart wrenching to see your child with eyes glazed over screaming at you when they insert a catherater through scare tissue.

How do I even explain this to her? How can I explain it to you? That for three years I still believe that God is in control and doing the best for her. I could have totally turned my back on him long ago for not answering this prayer. I haven't and I know I can't face this without Him. I will pray for healing. I will pray for his mercy and grace on the appointment. I know He will be there with me and I pray for His will to be done. So much of what God does not make sense to us. I know He is in this working it for our good, even if I don't see it right now. Do you have a situation like that?

Matthew 17:20
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Lord,
I pray for Your strength and comfort for my family this week. Cover all my children and put your hands upon them. I ask You to heal my daughter. I know You could instantly. I also know that if You do not it is because You have a bigger plan than I can see. I put this situation in Your hands because mine are not capable. Lord, I pray for any of the EOD people that are in a situation like mine. Let them be healed and let them give you control of their situations. You are soverign and You do care.
In Jesus' name,
Amen